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I am sad to to admit I keep going up and down 20-30lbs and it is driving me crazy… I can’t seem to break the cycle, be it exercise and eating right, to Vitamins… I want a personal trainer and meal planner.. I seem to be on a good track now, I am loosing again, eating more balanced and keeping active but its not enough to make me happy. I don’t feel fat. I feel like a beautiful woman stuck in a heavy suit… And all people see is the baggage around me and not who I see or how I feel about myself.. I wish so bad who I feel I am reflected in my looks..

I am not a vain person, but lets be real. We live in a world of vain people who can’t see beyond the cover…. They think what they see is who we are… Not true.. It is just a suit… Even tho I dress nice, and I take care of myself I still get stereotyped as being a fat lazy slob..

What makes it worse is most places except Walmart, only make cute exercise cloths small already thin women.. What about us us bigger laddies. We are the ones who need the confidence boost and to feel brave enough to exercise.. How do you think we get thin? Hello!!!! Don’t we get to dress pretty and cute too?

I’m so frustrated with my body I wanna get some blood tests done to see what, I need to do to loose the unwanted weight.. Surgeries are not an option, to much scar tissue and history. I wonder if my health insurance will cover it… Nutrisystem (Been there done that lost 40lbs but gained it back), is good.. Bu not good for long term…

I am getting on herbal life http://www.goherbalife.com/amelias to try.. We will see if it is any better… anything that helps I will do… I am pretty short on time and I won’t have a kitchen for a while.. So it will be easy… My main problem is knowing the proper balance, and what is best for me. The nutritionist at my drs office may be able to help… Maybe I can get the blood work done though her.

Blah blah blah…. I am not making excuses. I am very serious, and I wanna find a good place to exercise too.. I went to one gym.. OH MY! all thin pretty people, very rude staff.. Its a gym, where people go to work out, why be so cruel.. I miss Planet fitness so much. They were awesome.. The only other option will be an hour away.. No biggie.. I’m doing the application for it, It is a nice medical gym, way better then the one I looked at and it even has a pool.. Kind of like a health club… I hope I can afford it. this would be awesome….. Hey its a start. If i get in I’ll go 3 times a week..

I want to wear dresses again, shorts, I wanna feel as pretty as i do inside on the outside..

╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯ Amy Jane ╰ღ╮❤╭ღ╯

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My Name is Amy Jane and I am a Princess. As is every one of you ladies.

I recently watched a movie called “Lying To Be perfect” It is about a Author who created the perfect for  herself and went by a sur name…. Kind of sounds familiarize… >.< Guilty!!   Any ways, in the movie she was over weight like me, and her and her friends made a pact to loose weight together.  I have seen biggest loose, and other shows, and none of them motivated me. I am not binging or anything, I keep trying to loose weight but it has just been so hard. I keep going up and down, and finding foods I like,   that I can make,  or eat with  my meds has been hard.  Oh by the way I was born with a congental heart problem so I can not work out like most people can. But I am standing in faith for healing, and I am doing better then ever.

The Show “Biggest looser” urks me, I flat out hate it. It makes me feel worse and has the opposit effect on me then it does for others. But the movie “Lying To Be Perfect” hit home!! I will post more on that latter and add a page for my Weight loss and food tips latter.

The one thing I can tell you now is start little and go from there. A 5-1o min walk. Smaller portions, cut back or cut out soda’s, and calorie count. I stated walking 5 – 1o mins a day years ago, and now I can walk almost three miles on a good day.

I can do it, I want to look good when it comes time for my book singings, I want to like myself and feel beautiful. I want to make a man happy when he looks at me. He won’t be ashamed to have me on his arm.

I was going to keep this privet but if this can help motivate just one person it is worth exposing my secrets for.  So here is goes…

I give my self starting this week, yesterday.. Four months to Loose 30 or more pounds. I have a wedding to attend, but that is just the start… I want to loose 100 lbs total.. (Feel better now?) Seriously, I need to loose 100lbs to get back tot what I was when I was 16 and to be the right weight for my heart and height.

So here it goes… Keep me in my prayers! If you have any tips or thoughts please leave comments!  I could use all the encouragement I can get..

~Amy Jane

Here I am

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